Sunday, April 29, 2012

Living Psalm 23 - a sermon


Easter 4B
April 29, 2012
Psalm 23

Living Psalm 23

It’s portrayed in paintings and stained glass windows, a gentle Jesus holding a calm young lamb in one arm and a shepherd’s staff in the other.  It is always a serene pose and sure there are variations of the scene but, when the phrase “Jesus, the good shepherd” is spoken, gentle Jesus and the calm lamb is the image that is most likely brought into view.  What about the rest of the story, though?  What about the images associated with a table being prepared in the presence of our enemies?  What about the images of the scared sheep following the shepherd through the valley of the shadow of death? The way I see it, the images of the 23rd psalm more accurately tell the story of Jesus the Good Shepherd…because it’s about our life together…it’s about the hurts and the pains and the awkwardness that happens within life…but it’s also about how God, through the person of Jesus, permeates the entire realm of life so that even in the midst of the hurts and pains and awkwardness, our cups can run over. 
Now, don’t get me wrong, I like the Gospel text for this morning.  I yearn for the day when we do come together as one flock with one shepherd.  But, I’m also a city girl who knows nothing about sheep except what I’ve learned from petting farms as a child and from friends who have farmed sheep.  So, for someone like me, the Gospel text doesn’t really resonate. 
But the 23rd Psalm …that text speaks to a common experience of life.  Imagine a picture perfect day spent out on a green lawn…or spending sometime near a calm lake or stream…allow the smells of fresh air, green grass, and cool waters to enter into your senses.
Having spent most of my life in Michigan and Illinois, I was blessed to live for 17 years within walking distance of a large lake and, over the course of my life, I have become a water person. Water stills my soul, calms my nerves and helps me to relax.  Water is a powerful compound. It has the power to calm and soothe, to shock and cause pain. It can refresh and heal, and it can cause sickness and death.  Water is fun, and it is dangerous.  It is centering and calming and scary.
Seven years ago, my family rented a cabin in South Haven, Michigan for a week.  The cabin was across the road and down two flights of stairs from the beach and Lake Michigan, so of course we spent the majority of our time there by the lake.  The first four days of our trip, the water was beautiful.  It was very relaxing and healing to sit on the hot sand, book in hand, and listen to the sound of gentle waves lapping on the shore and feel the cool water on my feet.  In the evenings we watched the sun set over peaceful waters as we walked up and down the shore and then sat in the sand as the last remaining rays of light danced across the calm waters.  
As the week came to a close, a storm front started to pass through and the water got progressively rougher.  Our final day in South Haven was a dark one, but my family decided that we couldn’t waste any time we had available to us to sit on the beach, so across the street and down the stairs we went to watch the storm cross the lake.  Then my brother had a brilliant idea.  He, my sister and I would go fight the waves that were now high enough to attract body boarders and the like.  And so, like little kids, the three of us young adults raced into the water, plowing into the waves with all our might.   We tried jumping over them, through them, going under them…the waves fighting back, not wanting to give of their shape or size to the likes of us.  When we had about used up our energy, mom and dad appeared jumping over the waves with rafts and we all decided that instead of fighting the waves, why not just let them carry us.  So we did. We floated among the high waves and rough surf until eventually we made it back to shore…exhausted…but a good exhausted.  We had accomplished what we had come to the beach that morning to do.  And although the week ended on a rainy note, we still carried the memory of when the lake was almost as flat as glass, the beams of the setting sun reflecting their light off the water. 
Water is life and it is death, it is healing and it can cause disease.  Water shows us a pattern of life that is both alarming and comforting.  When it is calm, water can be a source of relaxation, of hydration, of play.  When it is rough, water can be a source of destruction…it, in itself, can be a valley of the shadow of death. 
Water is sacramental.
It is the place that we bring Kiera Joyce this morning to be joined to Christ in both death and life…with the Good Shepherd leading her to those waters of rest. 
But it doesn’t end there, it doesn’t end with water, there is also a table being prepared…one that is set in the presence of those who trouble us.  I’m not talking about an awkward dinner party with guests in attendance who are in the midst of a disagreement or just don’t see eye to eye, though I’m sure that this has happened to at least some of us at one time or another.  Rather, I am talking about a joyous feast where those who have the least in common and the most to disagree about are brought together by the Good Shepherd to share a meal and celebrate together the gift that is the body and blood of our Lord Jesus Christ.  And maybe, just maybe, one day the sharing of this feast will translate into our everyday lives without it being awkward or uncomfortable. 
The 23rd psalm is a text about God as our shepherd, shown in Christian eyes, through the presence of Jesus Christ.  It is also about our life together, about the times when we are taken to places where our souls are stilled, times when we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, times where we sit at tables prepared for us in the presence of our enemies, those who trouble us. It is about the sacramental times in our lives where we are taken to places that we would never expect with people we would never expect and our experiences of the holy in those times and places and with those people.  It makes you wonder, what would those stained glass windows and paintings look like? 
They would probably be a little more unsettling, for one thing.  At the same time, though, they would tell a more complete story about how Christ permeates our life together and is present in those moments of joy and comfort and stillness, as well as in moments of death and hurt and awkwardness and brings us together in ways we would never expect, just like a shepherd leading a flock.



Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Wellness Wednesday!

As of Monday, I had done reverse progress on my fitness/wellness goals.

Then yesterday, I attended a luncheon on wellness and nutrition given by a member of Trinity who is a retired biology teacher and the leader of Trinity's Earth Stewards team. It was a good reminder of goals I need to set for myself as far as nutrition, which will give me more energy for the physical fitness portion of operation fabulous.

And as I took stock, I realized that though there are days in which I don't hit the mark in terms of eating well, on the whole Chris and I do a pretty good job of incorporating whole foods into our diet as much as we can. I still really wish that a cheeseburger had the same caloric count and nutrition value as kale, though.

My other helper in this quest is the myfitnesspal app on my iphone. Again, though I'm finding it SUPER hard to stick with the daily calorie count they suggest (this part will be easier when I find more time to exercise), I do find it helpful to be told by this app that I am doing really well on keeping fat intake down and natural vitamin intake up (Side note: did you know how much vitamin C is in cauliflower?? 1 cup contains 77% of your daily recommended intake...and that 1 cup only costs you 25 calories. I say that again: 77% recommended daily value of Vitamin C for only 25 calories! and it's amazing when roasted in a little bit of extra virgin olive oil and some lemon juice...yummm)

 So we press on, trying not to be too hard on myself for Sunday's dinner from Freddy's (side note: the once a month splurge on chili cheese fries or something like that is enough to motivate me to stay on track) and instead focusing on the wins like yesterday, when I ate 10 servings of vegetables.

Stats: Weight - 167.2 (ouch! pass the veggies, please)
 Miles since start - 9

Goals:
Increase walking
Re-introduce portions of P90x (not ready to go full blown yet, but there are 4 workouts I love)
Continue to increase whole food intake
Positive thinking!
Try more healthy recipes (my turkey meatloaf recipe rocks, btw)

Monday, April 23, 2012

Manic Monday

"Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony." Colossians 3:14
This verse sits on my desk. It's part of a piece of graphic design art by Kirsten Malcolm Berry, whose art I collect. The pieces I have so far have all been based on verses of scripture that have been meaningful to me. But this one if my favorite so far. For me, it's a much holier version of one of my favorite quotes of all time "If you can't love yourself, how in the hell are you gonna love somebody else. Can I get an amen?" ~ RuPaul

Because when it comes down to it, even on the craziest and worst days...the ones filled with bad news, the ones filled with frustration, the ones where you cannot find anything to wear in your closet full of clothes and your hair just won't sit right...it's love, love for yourself and love for others, that makes the day worth living. That's what operation fabulous is about...taking the time to love and appreciate yourself for who you are and living with one rule - be the best you that God made you to be. It's a rule that's easy to break sometimes, but it puts down a foundation for not only loving yourself, but loving others and the world around you and appreciating all that God has made.

Quick thoughts for today...

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Thankful Thursday

It's a rainy Thursday after Easter...which means a sleepy Jen...

This means a thankful Thursday is in order

This week I am thankful for:
- A beautiful Triduum and Easter
- Baptism
- Easter Monday naps
- Easter Tuesday treats from Mom and Dad
- The ability to go to bed as early as I want to/need to
- Rain
- Thursday bible study
- The opportunity to spend the evening at Hollis (if you haven't been there and are in the KC area, you need to go)
- Local, organic milk

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Starting over...

In December, I attempted to start a program to get me on track with eating healthier and exercising more. I did really good for about a month and then fell off the wagon.

So I'm starting again from scratch.

Here's the low down from this morning:
Current weight: 166
Desired weight: 135-140
Miles walked: 2

The plan is to not have grocery trips like Monday's where the post-Easter exhaustion led to a basket filled with 2 kinds of potato chips, fried chicken, coke, and toilet paper. (At the time, all those items were necessary)

Instead, we will start getting our milk from the Iwig dairy store, where the milk is a bit more expensive, but it came from cows who live only 20 miles away, so that's super cool. We will also begin increasing the frequency with which we visit the farmer's market, which opens Saturday! I will begin walking to church more (a win for me and the environment) and our food menus will again attempt to be more health conscious.

We will still allow for a once a week pizza night since we have become addicted to our pizza stone and, besides every day cookware and dishes, it is the most used item in our kitchen. But we've also started eating healthier pizzas that taste just as good as the five cheese, four meat, etc, etc, pizzas.

My two rules for sanity:
1) Sunday is my exercise day off unless I decide otherwise (sometimes I like to walk to church on Sunday mornings, it's nice)
2) Unless something is planned for that day, Fridays will still remain no alarm clock day. Sleep is just as important as exercise in my book.

Where I need help:
1) I have a plethora of amazing cookbooks that I wander around the house with on a regular basis and use as the basis for our menus. But sometimes I just need a quick, easy, recipe for nights when I really don't feel that much like cooking. So I'm looking for recipes that are on quick and easy par with the recipes you find on the cambell's soup labels, but healthier (Though honestly, their chicken and rice with low fat cream of mushroom soup is awesome). If you've got any like that, feel free to share!
2) Folks to ask how much I've walked in the past week. I usually do great the first couple weeks but then slack off. So it's about week 4 that I need people to bug me.

Let's do this!!!